There are many characters who on the surface look the same, they are elegant, have high standards, popular, live a charmed life in many ways, but they get such different reactions from me. For example, Anne Shirley, who I like and would like to be more like, and Amy March who I resent.
The Amy characters seem to have everything handed to them (and are very spoiled) without, in my opinion being very interesting while I think Anne type characters earn their way far more often of the time.
Also, I feel like Amy was a “told” character rather than a “shown” character. And well, I don’t think she ever learned to laugh at herself. Anne did learn to laugh at herself. Anne had dignity and could be offended by presumption, but I always sided with Anne while I always thought Amy a spoiled snot.
However, I should note, that I feel that Anne turns into more of an Amy type in the later books when the focus is on her children, she’s not Anne Shirley any more who is hard working and earns her way, I feel like the writing portrays her more as a haughty lady of leisure, who sits above it all and offers judgement. Also, I don’t like Rilla very much at first, Rilla is very much an Amy March type character.
Narnia is so Christmassy, my sisters I think have made watching Narnia during Christmas a tradition.
Rating My Narnia Fanatic Level
1. Nostalgic Fanatic — you read the book and/or watched the movies as a child and the word Narnia gives you a warm feeling
2. Serious Fanatic — you rediscovered the wonder of Narnia after you were older and have read the books and watched the movies
3. Maniacal Fanatic — you have lived Narnia from childhood, hid in closets on more occasions than is healthy, have read and watched all the movies including the BBC version
I think I’m between Serious Fanatic and Maniacal Fanatic.
Dad read the books to us twice as children (with the full color illustrations from the church library very important, but when we later bought them we got the black and white illustrations, do you know how important knowing the children’s hair color is, I kid, sort of, the full color illustration bring Narnia to life)
Then we watched several or maybe all of the BBC movies.
Then we watched the three new movies.
Then I think I read some of the books as an adult.
Then I read them straight through a few years ago.
Then I reread them straight through beginning last December to this fall.
The Tag Questions:
1. Who’s your favorite Pevensie sibling?
Edmund. The bad boy became the deepest, truest, sweetest one. This happened with Eustace too.
2. What is the most underrated Narnia book?
Aren’t most of them underrated compared to The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe? Probably The Horse and His Boy. Its not exactly part of the main story line, so I think it gets left out. But I like the unique look, and all the characters.
3. Who is your favorite Narnian king?
4. Who is your favorite Narnian queen?
5. Which non-human Narnian do you like best?
Hmm, maybe Reepicheep?
6. Which book deserves a movie?
Um, my least favorite? I dread book adaptations now. Filmmakers spoil things.
7. What is the one thing you did as a Narnia fan that you do not regret?
All of it!
I know lots of people discuss reading broader globally, moving about of Western Lit if they have thoroughly read Western Lit which doesn’t seem the case for most people, good and well. I however, don’t even read that broad. I’ve barely read my own nation’s literature, and what I’ve read . . . I . . . do not love.
I like some children’s/ya sort of literature (Alcott, To Kill a Mockingbird) and plenty of middle grade from the U.S. but most of my adult classic reading is British. I wouldn’t describe myself as an Anglophile in the way many people do, who seem to portray England exactly the same as during the heyday of the classics. I love the literature and the history, in part because well, like many Americans, it is my history and when it diverges, it is my cousin’s history so to speak. I’ve no desire to be British, nevertheless, I’m definitely rather an American’s American in many respects.
But I do not love our literature. Don’t misunderstand me, I do have some respect for it for some aspects of some of it (I think, perhaps the wordsmithery and that is it), but I don’t understand the tone of it at all. Its so incredibly depressing and fatalistic and that doesn’t seem to fit the overall tone of our nation throughout history. For example, I can understand that sort of tone in Russian Literature. I can’t find any bright spots or hopefulness ever in Russian history. But we at least have always acted like everything was hunky dory whether it was or not. And fatalism seems the opposite to our can do attitude for much of history. It is also, in my opinion extremely boring and depressing to read. And all the literature I’ve come across from America is fatalistic.
Tied to this fatalism and glumness is a total lack of humor/awareness/sense of the ludicrous. I think lots of people know that when you take everything as humor, nothing is serious, but I think that when everything is serious, nothing is. I don’t think that there needs to be objective humor per se, but there is a sort of connected attribute of self-awareness, a sense of the ludicrous, that without which, serious perspectives come across as bland and pompous and possibly ludicrous. Ethan Frome layers on so many tragedies of such a self-imposed type and in a way that by the end, I’m disgusted, not empathetic. And if that was all truly supposed to be serious, its absolutely a ludicrous story.
Earlier this year when I was bingeing the Speaking with Joy podcast, she had a quote by Chesterton. I believe it had to have been this one. I can’t verify that it was Chesterton, but all the same, whoever said it it sums this point up perfectly
“Humor can get in under the door while seriousness is still fumbling at the handle.”
American literature will never have my love, but I have felt that I needed to read more. You ought to read more than just what you love, and I am after all, American. So, I’ve put authors on my list. I’d read some short stories I found interesting by Faulkner and Hemingway. I picked up The Sound and The Fury. Yeah, that was a no. I did a bit of research on his other work and dropped Faulkner. Maybe the two short stories are enough. I then eventually picked up Hemingway, and slogged my way through two works and got mired in a third. I had thought that because they were so short, I would read all the fairly famous ones anyway. Mulling it over, I decided, that that was enough. I don’t enjoy his stories, nor do I think I need to dwell on them. All of his characters are sociopaths, anyone with feelings is portrayed as weak in addition to the fatalism. I don’t really think that that is a great thing to absorb in addition to my not enjoying them. I’ve had a taste. That is enough.
I then decided, that I’d try to try one of each fairly famous American author’s works. I don’t have to read all their works, I don’t even have to read the most famous of their works. Getting a taste of their work is good enough, perhaps in fact may be too much.
Recently my sister mentioned reading a Flannery O’Conner novel and feeling like she shouldn’t be reading it, it was something about a pastor who wasn’t a Christian but was still preaching. I feel like that is another aspect to Am Lit. That of focusing on really disturbing things and people. Or at least some of them like O’Conner (I’ve not read hers, that is the impression I’ve received from what little I’ve heard), Faulkner, and Hemingway. I remember in high school Am Lit that the focus was on short stories and they were all horrible, so I assumed all short stories were that way. Why is this such a focus?! And should I be reading this stuff? Maybe a short story is the only taste I should have, if any of such authors.
I guess, tread warily will be my goal.
Another polished up draft.
I loved the categories of Gretchen Rubin’s The Four Tendencies. It’s not at all profound and not as helpful as I wanted beyond the original categories (at least for Rebels, and I already knew myself before her explanation, I knew I rebelled against others and myself), but the scheme is very useful without being absurdly and unscientifically and unrealistically limiting like personality typing. I found the other explanations, for other people and to see that I lean Questioner helpful, I do think they weren’t super deep and were stereotyped, but the Rebel section just seemed complete stereotype.
I’m starting to think that most of the stereotype of rebels comes from Obliger-rebellion. Maybe she mentions this? But then she put so much stereotyping on Rebels. Anyway. If you feel the need to rebel, if you make a production of rebellion, that seems to belie the actual inner Rebel/contrarian. We don’t actually do anything we don’t want to do, we are in a constant stasis of rebellion/resistance/contrariness, it’s our norm. I think that’s is part of why I neither stand out nor conform. I just am. It is normal to me to have low-level pervasive contrariness as an undercurrent, not any “reason” for it.
In my tiny church bubble almost every teen professed faith (Upholders and Obligers) or radically “went off the deep end” (more stereotypical Rebels?) except me and a sparse other few. Of those who originally professed, those who left the faith also went beserk, rejecting everything they had known, not merely the faith but the morals, the worldviews, everything pell-mell without analyzing any of it (Obliger rebellion).
And then there was me, not a believer but not making a public pronouncement of not being a Christian (I was afraid until I was older and then I was afraid of lying, so compulsively started pointing it out) and throwing the baby out with the bathwater. I think there might have been a few other quiet intellectual dissenters (I didn’t fit this either, I had a side that leaned this way, but my emotional and mental issues were louder although I didn’t want them seen), probably Questioner types, but the norm was the Obliger/Upholder group plus the forthrightly, go against everything immediately people, more stereotypical Rebels although not 100% sure they were Rebels, maybe they leaned Rebel/Obliger while I was Rebel/Questioner and that made the difference.
Another post from the past. I bounce back and forth to interest and aggravation in personality tests and boredom. Here is a period of interest and aggravation.
Charity and Katie have been posting explanations about personality tests, and I wanted to post my results and I found this draft in my archives
So, what types get hung up on stuff? Because I just can’t let this Myers Briggs thing go. I know its absolute hogwash, but seeing all these people make funny videos or talk about their type, I keep wanting to find a type. I get ISTP from like every test I take, but I don’t “relate.” I’ve also gotten ISTJ (I can be ISTJ towards people, “follow rules, fit in a box, leave me alone.” (well actually, now, I’m leaning towards avoider) But oh, honey, don’t try that on me! I’ve also gotten INTP. But none of them “fit.” And the functions, what the heck? Looking at the function, I’m like three introverted ones which you “can’t have.” Yeah, okay. I wanted to know what a function based test would look like.
This test used a couple frameworks. I didn’t put any types on the questions at the bottom because #1 I wanted to know/didn’t relate and #2 I didn’t want it to affect the test. Guess what I got ISTP (also, INTP on two).
I’ve also done this cognitive function test as few times. I think I usually got the same results.
Adobe Creative Types. I took this in April and October and both times I got the Thinker.
I took the 4 Temperament Test tonight. This framework was the first personality tests I took or I had tests based on it. The closest to the original I took put me as mostly choleric with I think melancholic, the plegmatic, then sanguine, for a while I kept the results, but I don’t know if I still have those, this had to be over a decade ago. Before I took the test this time, reading over the explanations here, I thought I’d been choleric and melancholic, guess what I got 51% choleric and 49% melancholic. I personally don’t think the definitions match me very well, this test looks to focus too much on the positives maybe. I don’t see much of my low-energy-ness. I don’t have the temper I used to either.
This is tied to digital minimalism, information excess flows into digital excess.Too much info, period, plus saving things for reading later. I need to realize that like Sherlock, I can’t store everything. I also don’t need to access everything. And re-accessing, maintaining, and organizing are not a great use of my time. I spend more time doing that than creating. Actually my creating is taking a deep dive anyway.
To many emails, daily. I think I’ve managed to cut my emails down considerably. And have a better archiving process in place. I’m trying to unsubscribe from marketing emails once I’ve received the discount. I also have a habit of emailing myself something I want to read later, This is often useful, but again, so much information from so many sources, I can’t be interested and keep track of it all, and I often leave items in inbox as a reminder so I don’t forget rather than acting on things immediately, so I still end up with a lot by the weekend, but a much smaller load that before I did a big unsub effort. Still could use work.
Blogs. I miss having more high quality blogs, I have many favorites, but I wish there were more. I think I need to unfollow some that I don’t really read much and then continually reevaluate. And then there are my drafts, which I’m working on now. I think I had 80 something at the beginning of this year, and I had 40 something this week which I’m working on.
Youtube. I really had to pare down people I follow on youtube, I was wasting sooo much time. I put many on an overflow list in Pinterest so I don’t forget them. I still feel like I watch too many.
Instagram. I like Instagram, but I still waste to much time on it. I delete it off my phone for weekdays although I still get on it on my computer sometimes, need to work on that. I also need to unfollow lots more people, esp. the impersonal big accounts.
- Facebook. I got back on FB after I think like 5 years. I wanted access to marketplace. I did however, immediately unfollow a lot of people who post a lot. I think I also need to delete from phone.
- Pinterest. I do find Pinterest useful as a visual search engine, but I don’t think I need to curate more pins, but rather look at those I have. I also find it useful to use Pinterest boards as planning boards and vision boards. Again, balance.
- Bookmarks. I have many bookmark folders, some I do refer back to and others I could use more, but I think I need to delete some, brb. Oh, and again the “oh, I’ll read this later.” Yeah, either set aside a time, read it now, or delete.
- Word. I have tons of scribbles in Word that I’d like to develop into blog posts or move to Evernote.
- Evernote. I’ve managed to minimize and empty all my sticky notes. I’m trying to really only use Evernote. To keep all my thoughts and potential blog posts, etc. in Evernote. I then need to make the time from scribbling them to publishing in blog post shorter.
- Other apps. I like the deleting until needed concept. I think I need to do this more strictly.
Another from the archives.
Here is the pattern from this blog post (I think if I kept that photo, it is probably un-rescue-able on my old computer). Of the few knitting things I’ve altered or come up with, this is the simplest. I really wish I’d written out in an understandable way the striped baby dresses (I did have handwritten notes but not sure what I did with them) and the toddler shrug, I mean I’m sure I could do them again, but it would have been more efficient to come up with the pattern then.
I have worn this scarf, and I think I used sport weight, so with the light weight and the pattern, the sides roll into each other. I’d recommend a heavier weight and probably a few stitches of garter on each side. This was four years ago, and I still haven’t added buttons to wear it as a infinity scarf, although I may have some I could use. Maybe if I remember to get around to that I could update with a photo.
I used the stitch found here, but I always find it easier just to have some simple instructions if only for how many stitches. and so, I wrote out more specifically what I did in case anyone else wanted to know.
I used Rowan Finest which is sport -weight and size 4 needles. I cast on 45 stitches.
Knitted in a multiple of 14 sts, +3 and 28-row repeat.
Row 1: (right side) K8, p1, * k13, p1; repeat from * to the last 7 sts, k8.
Row 2 and all even number rows: slip one stitch purlwise, purl to end.
Row 3: slip one knitwise, k6, p3, * k11, p3; repeat from * to the last 6 sts, k6, ktbl.
Row 5: slip one knitwise, k5, p5, * k9, p5; repeat from * to the last 5 sts, k5, ktbl.
Row 7: slip one knitwise, k4, p7, * k7, p7; repeat from * to the last 4 sts, k4, ktbl.
Row 9: slip one knitwise, k3, p9, * k5, p9; repeat from * to the last 3 sts, k3 ktbl.
Row 11: slip one knitwise, k2, p11, * k3, p11; repeat from * to the last 2 sts, k2, ktbl.
Row 13: slip one knitwise, k1, * p13, k1; repeat from * to the end but one, ktbl.
Row 15: slip one knitwise, p1, * k13, p1; repeat from * to the end but one, ktbl.
Row 17: slip one knitwise, p2, k11, * p3, k11; repeat from * to the last 2 sts, p2, ktbl.
Row 19: slip one knitwise, p3, k9, * p5, k9; repeat from * to the last 3 sts, p3, ktbl.
Row 21: slip one knitwise, p4, k7, * p7, k7; repeat from * to the last 4 sts, p4, ktbl.
Row 23: slip one knitwise, p5, k5, * p9, k5; repeat from * to the last 5 sts, p5, ktbl.
Row 25: slip one knitwise, p6, k3, * p11, k3; repeat from * to the last 6 sts, p6, ktbl.
Row 27: slip one knitwise, p7, k1, * p13, k1; repeat from * to the last 7 sts, p7, ktbl.
Row 28: Slip one purlwise, purl to end.
Repeat until as long as desired. If you want to make into the scarf in an interchangeable cowl and regular scarf add buttonholes as instructed below.
On row 8 or 22: slip one purl-wise, p2, p2tog, yo, p7, p2tog, yo; repeat between stars until 4 stitches remaining: purl 3, ktbl.
If next row is 9, finish to 13; if next row is 23, finish to 27. Bind off in purl. Block and attach buttons to the other end.
I’ve seen a lot of videos some humor, some not about the strictness of immigrant parents or brown vs white parents or middle class vs lower class. Plus there is always the generational difference of the “I had to walk to school up a hill both ways in snow barefoot” which is how we’ve started to respond every time an older person starts “in MY day we had too . . .”
Things that were normal back in the day are considered criminal now. Like my grandmother and her sister were all socked in the face for sassing their mom, and switched/tanned whatever, but they held no hard feelings. I mean there is a whole lot more discipline or “discipline” of that sort going on around here now because country people still are like that. There are so many things about middle class America that don’t apply very well around here, because most people here haven’t been middle class enough generations or are working class middle class.
Even though my background doesn’t really fit the normal middle class narrative (conservative homeschooler stereotype is notoriously harsh/strict), I do feel like more people my age around here were spanked while seemingly there are a lot of people my age in the Western world at large who were treated more like little princesses and princelings, at least per internet stereotypes. I wish there were stats on that sort of thing, it would be really interesting
So, despite being upper middle class millennial, at least me and the next sister after me seemed to be parented by country/immigrant/lower class parents of a generation or so back. At least if you are going by the stereotypes.
I mean there is a limited amount of strictness that public school parents can be, they can’t watch you in school. You are under constant surveillance at home. Lots of people said strictness made sneaky kids, I don’t think so, I didn’t DARE be sneaky, although I think my siblings did a bit (but nothing truly bad). Also, I was terrified of everything anyway.
There are some things in the homeschool world that seem to be the opposite in the rest of the world.
I think I may have mentioned before, but the naive oldest homeschool child cluelessness phenomenon. I feel like it’s usually the oldest public schooled kid telling the younger sibling about stuff. Not with us. Pretty sure my younger siblings learned lots of stuff at a much younger age, possibly even before me (okay, maybe that is a stretch, the youngest is 12 years younger). Granted a few of them went to public highschool, but even the ones who didn’t. I think my parents started out stricter and then loosened up over the years, but I feel like its more than that.
And then there is what we oldest children of many have called youngest child privilege. I know people at large mention the favored oldest child status (ha!). I think also that when there aren’t many kids in the family maybe the youngest don’t get as spoiled, but when there are, wow! And it’s not just our family we’ve noticed it in, we’ve seen it in other larger families as well. Any other homeschoolers notice this?
I’m sure middle children everywhere bemoan their “forgotten” status and the oldest and youngest roll their eyes. Especially if as is the case, the strictness either decreased or increased, so the bookends perspectives would be, “oh, how sad you didn’t get in trouble as much and got away with more.”
Edit: I had this in my drafts since 2018 to link up with a potential top 1o freebie post after I read more, it was supposed to be various health topics, but since I read more in the epidemiology field since starting the draft and because of the pandemic and I only had one other book in a different health section, I decided to make this one an epidemiology/disease post. Up to the beginning of this year, I was seriously considering trying to get a masters in epidemiology and history with a focus on historical pandemics to help inform for vaccinations. And then this curve ball was thrown (actually I would argue two curve balls, the actual pandemic and then the handling of it, I still feel like I’m living in an alternate reality, I feel like misinformation has the upper hand, that journalists, politicians, and people twisting the facts of disease have the control and the loudest voices, the loudest voice in my family, is not anyone in the medical field or the CDC, to the point that I wonder, Has being informed helped me? Am I informed? What is information? What do I trust? What did I actually know? Anything? Nothing? Why? Wherefore? What? What on earth? Who am I?).
I’ve included the dates I read to point out how weirdly timed it all was. I mean I’ve always been obsessed with germs, and I took microbiology in college, but the fact I started reading these particularly apropos books started less than 2 years up to less than a year before the current pandemic!
- Vaccines: What Everyone Needs to Know by Kristen A. Feemster (finished reading in July 2018)
- Epidemics and Pandemics: Their Impacts on Human History by J. N. Hays (finished reading in July 2018, read my review)
- Viruses: A Very Short Introduction by Dorothy H. Crawford (finished reading in February 2019)
- Epidemiology: A Very Short Introduction by Rodolfo Saracci (finished reading in June 2019)
- Pandemics: A Very Short Introduction by Christian W. McMillen (finished reading in Jun 2019, read my review)
I had a couple more books on my TBR in the microbiology and epidemiology subject field that I wish I’d read before the pandemic which I requested now. It would have been interesting to have all these insights as well.
- Infectious Disease: A Very Short Introduction by Marta L. by Wayne,
- The End of Illness by David Angus
- Spillover: Animal Infections and the Next Human Pandemic by David Quammen (I mean?!)
- I Contain Multitudes: The Microbes Within Us and a Grander View of Life by Ed Yong
We usually have a Spring and Fall family Ladies’s Shopping Day. This year we had a modified family Ladies’ Shopping Day. Usually more people come and we shop for hours at around 3-4 stores and then eat out. I think we shopped for less than 1.5 hours, and I went to two stores. Mom and one aunt went to three, and we picked up food to eat at my grandmother’s house, she I think just went to one place.
I only ever been to the post office (for work) and grocery stores and those are usually fairly quick. So I think that is the longest I’ve worn a mask. I also think anyone besides our family at the stores is too much on a normal day in a normal year. Plus large thrift stores with booths are overwhelming, so despite being the youngest by quite a bit, I was done in just as fast, if not faster. But because I’m usually much faster at looking, I found a considerable haul.
I found this one for about $2.50. I saw several more with a price range of $8 to $13. However, I think I have a reamer, unless I got rid of it. It was prettier to0, a green glass one. Oh, well, we’ll see once I unpack everything in the near future.
Now, farm house isn’t my style, but I do like farm house cooking, and I do like a touch of rustic style now and then. I found this bean pot for $12.
I found these fun Christmas cookie cutters for a total of $5.
I’m trying to keep a lookout for trays since I learned the tip of using trays to tie decor together via one of the the Sorry Girls videos. This was between $11 and $12.
I love silver and pewter. Once I again, I think I managed to find the cheapest option, this is silver plated. I’ll polish it at some point, although the patina is kinda cool too. I found this for $10 while the other options I saw were in the $20 and above range, and I don’t think I like the shapes of any of them as well either.
I saw this sake bottle before at least once over 6 months ago, except the little cups were with it at that time. It was only $5, and I’m planning on using it as a vase (my first thought was with a sprig of eucalyptus), but I still left my information in case they find the cups.
Gotta have a teacup of course. This was $3. There were several, but I like having different ones, but then I was thinking, what if it broke?! However, I think I should stick with this one, especially since at another store I asked them to hold me an entire blue, white, and silver Noritake dinner set which had tea cups.
And when I was putting up various things I opted not to get, I found a Kitchen Aid crock pot for $14!!!! It works, I tried it out to make sure.
I have another cream multi-strand pearl necklace. I’m wanting to restring both of them into different things. We’ll see. This was $5.
$5 vintage feel studs. I love the oversized retro look. I’ve already worn these. I often find at least one unique pair of earrings to add to my collection on these trips.
Speaking of the earring collection, the day before I received my first Mejuri purchase. I was just scrolling their website dream shopping, when I saw these, I think they may be limited edition, and I knew I wanted them. I love the vintage modern look.
I wrote this after watching Endgame what was, it a year, two years ago? I have a problem with delayed responses to movies, I wrote this list out and then delayed writing it out into a real review, but since I’ve already done this, and I don’t like deleting things, I’ll try to brush it up a bit.
Brought back all the Clintasha chemistry, since there are so many iterations in the comics this is cannon as is Cap Am romance, not sure on that weird Hulk bit, ( but neither of those other flings felt like this), I mean I don’t love the characters, but I love them together. I love Katie’s theory about how he was married before he met her, because y’all, no WAY would he have married anyone else after meeting her.
- Honorable hero duo Thor/Cap and the long-forgotten movement of the hammer. I knew it would be Thor!
- Thor, oh, my stars. A scream. Definitely rounded out the movie. However, I do prefer handsome Thor (he looks his best in Ragnarok).
Cap and Peggy
Nat and Tony’s character arcs, two characters that can really get under my skin
Not too much of Cap M
Scott Lang’s arrival back: I think the fact that I didn’t know his story made this part even more poignant than it already was. I greatly disliked him in Civil War, but in this movie he intrigued me enough to watch his movies, which I greatly enjoyed.
So many awesome entrances
Perfectly timed humor
The whole plan
- I love almost every major character, even the ones who’ve previously and still annoyed me
I did wish there was more Bucky