Structured Spontaneity
My dad quoted someone as saying some people were running on “chaos” theory. While I’m not sure I’m that bad, I certainly run on fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants theory (I certainly did my Senior year of college; my sister, also a Senior then, told me later that I about gave her a heart attack . . . regularly) . . . or maybe moodiness theory. I think that this is part of the reason why I cannot seem to match personality types to a T (if they are very detailed). I like rules and lists, but I don’t like following schedules and lists. I follow honor codes and laws, but silly rules don’t appeal to me. I keep some things in my head, and I need a few things on paper and in my phone, but when I have too many to-dos, I get overwhelmed.
I guess I like structured spontaneity. I want a list items to choose from, to CHOOSE from, not to be bound to. I think that my entire family might be this way, but some of us are more motivated and disciplined. Now, I don’t like completely winging errands or vacations . . . especially since that sometimes means we do nothing. Of course, when we do have lists, my energy is quickly expended.
I’m easily overwhelmed. I don’t know why I pin or bookmark these pages, sometimes. I think these can be great as bouncing points. I like the lists of activates, books, etc. to pick from, I don’t like the lists of to-dos. I need more general ideas, and sometimes somethings are better left in my head or at least I might use lists to get to that point but not to keep as checklists. The more inspirational things, well, I think I’d like to get a chalkboard for that, those types of pages have been wasted paper in my bullet journal, and they don’t matter if they don’t take root in my heart anyway.
